Our 2011 Footprints

OUR STORY IN 2011

Hey baby,

Year 2011 had really been a very special year to me especially with your appearance. You are someone whom I never expect to jump into my life so sudden. Unplanned and unprepared. Even this is an unplanned blog. A space that I set up to release all my feelings & thoughts that I'll never get to say it out to you right in front of you. Though you stabbed my heart again and again but I didn't hold any anger towards you. In fact, my heart to you grows stronger each day.

You are the very first person that I went to karaoke with... Haven't been to karaoke before I met you. Thanks to you. Now that I'm kinda addicted to karaoke. Haven't been drinking so much out of my own house before I met you. Well, not to say that you are a bad influence to me but I wanted to say that you released the other side of me which I didn't know about. I'm always a very rigid, serious person but being with you, you ignite the other side of me. Being silly, spontaneous and fun... Though the days of holding your hands are not very long but I never ever regret for falling in love with you. Not even one day, one minute or one second. I just regretted for not spending more time with you during our days together.

We broke off, get back together for about a month and broke off again. But still we keep closely in touch. Tried staying away from each other but it doesn't seem to work for you and for me. Ended up, we're still very close. I guess our relationship is more like ‘Tom & Jerry’ kinda relationship. I’m more like your ‘Jerry’…You don’t want to see me, don’t want to be with me but you’ll miss me and will find your way to get me. When I try not to respond to you, you’ll try your very best to get me to you cause you know I’ll not resist you. I know you did try to be with me…TWICE…but you just couldn’t…I don’t mind not getting your love in return. I treat you good cause I had gave you my heart earlier….What I wrote in the love email that I send to you during our first breakup, I DO MEAN IT with ALL MY HEART… For me, I don’t mind not letting you know…I will love you silently, just as long as you’re happy….

There were too many things that we’d done together for the past 6 months. More than the 5 years which I’d spend with my EX. You brought me up & down, in & out, visited many new places, met with your family members & some of your closest friends. I don’t know how to write everything out in words so I made a video of our journey together in 2011.

Haven’t been so embarrass before my whole life but got really embarrassed in front of you. Need you to carry me back to your house totally drunk. Telling you all sorts of things which I couldn't even remember. When you replayed it back to me, that's exactly how I felt for you. I learned to let you go...I did try but each time when I do so... You came back. Sometimes, I just wonder...since you like being around me...wanted my care and attention, why don't you just forget the rest and we just start all over again... But i knew the answers.... It's just my silly thoughts....

Well, on new year eve…we did had our date deal but you forgotten. I know that you’re tired so I didn’t tell you that we actually had a date cause you made the first move to see me once you’ve return from your few days trip a day before. I also saw the disappointment on your face when you know that I’m not spending a night with you. Above all, you did ignite a FIREWORK in my life on the eve of 2012. You gave me a very good & unforgettable closure for the year. I never ever thought that you’ll introduce me to your closest friends. You bring me into your life once more, baby… Thanks, baby for taking me in as a part of your life on this special day. I had never ever spend any new year eve with anyone besides my family & relatives in my whole life before…YOU ARE MY VERY FIRST… THE ONE AND ONLY ONE… Guess I really need 20 years to forget about you and completely move on… ☺

I don’t really know how do you feel about me right now or who am I to do…but I am very sure that…I DO HAVE A SPECIAL PLACE IN YOUR HEART….

Thank you, baby for igniting the FIREWORK in my life before the end of 2011.

MIRACLE does happen and IT DID! It was you… You are indeed the miracle that I was hoping for before the end of 2011.

I didn’t stop loving you, baby. You just stop noticing it…

Happy New Year, baby!