All I Want For Christmas is YOU...

Baby...

I want to tell you this long time ago... I wanted to celebrate this year's Christmas with you soooo much... I want to give you everything the best.. I was thinking of throwing a Christmas party in KL this year. I know you always wanted to do something like this, a small house party if you have a home. You will enjoy it.. I don't need you to do anything but just sit back, relax and enjoy it with your friends. I don't mind you invite only your friends cause your friends are mine too now..

I don't know whether you realize this or not but I actually blend into your world... Know the people around you..Getting close with them.. click with them... In fact right now, I am actually closer to your family and friends instead of mine. I don't mind letting go everyone around me to be with yours cause I want to be a part of you. I know if I want to be with you, I have to accept everyone around you. It's easier for me to blend into your world rather than you blend into mine... You actually bring me into your world... When I'm in...you just kicked me out..

Now I'm actually lost.. But i guess you don't realize it as well. I contacted your bestest friend... She seems to be the only familiar face to me right now... I actually really need an ear right now... I know I couldn't tell you cause you'll definitely freak out.. I've seen you... I might me calm and steady but deep down in me...I harbour lots of words that I wanted to say to you...

If Santa really exists...My TOP Christmas wishlist would be you, baby.... All I want for Christmas is just YOU... I want to celebrate Christmas with you.... As Christmas is getting nearer... My feelings sink even more... I MISS YOU BADLY, baby... Though I see you every now and then... but I just couldn't let you know how I feel... Sometimes, i just feel like holding you from behind when you're sitting there watching drama...but i know you wouldn't like it... You know...I am happy when you're sick... This might sound bad but you make me feel that you need me when you're sick... You will want me to pamper you. You will want me to massage you... Put my hand on your forehead to feel whether you're having fever or not.. When you're headache, you will want me to massage your head..

No matter what I do or say right now... I just couldn't get you back into my arms again, don't I baby? GOSH! I finally understand the feeling of my very first EX. Makes me felt like I'm the JERK of the year now... What goes around really comes around! Guess this is 'Do unto others as you want others to do to you'...

Baby... I hope that we really could be together again this Christmas... I didn't tell you this... But I guess I will leave you for real after 3 years... That is why I try me very best to give you the best that i could and spend as much time as i can with you. You probably wouldn't appreciate every single thing that I do for you right now but I guess you'll start to realize this 3 years later when I'm gone...

PS: All I want for Christmas is you, baby... I LOVE YOU...