Sorry that I love you

Hey baby,

Thanks for coming to my rescue last night. Don't know what I'll be like without you... Sorry to trouble you... I promised this will be my very first & last time... I didn't realize that I actually told you that I love you.... I told myself many many times not to tell u anything about my feelings towards you....The more I control, the more I lost control....  I don't hope for anything but I just wish that you'll be happy... If staying away from me makes you better, I will do it for you.... I thought I'm getting over you but eventually I'm not... I was your secret santa... I knew you could guess it because of all the years, you have not receive anything like that before... I was shopping for you gift for 2 days cause I really dunno what to get for a woman who has everything... But somehow, this book title striked my mind cause i bought one too last year.... I dun know why it keeps appearing...Guess God wants you to read it cause He knows that you're discourage... And i bought it for you... I found 2 books for you but my heart told me to buy this for you... That message on the card...was wrote down especially for you out of inspiration... I hope it'll help you...

This is just your first gift... :)   Good things come in 3. I asked you about your leave because I thought of sending you your favourite sunflower for Christmas when I'm away.... Your 3rd gift will be pass to you by your sister. I don't know whether you'll hate me after this or will appreciate the things that I did for you... I can just hope that you'll put on a smile when you receive those gift...

Sorry that I still very much in love with you, baby....